Vivienne’s First visit to Bristol

A few weeks ago Vivienne came down to visit me in Bristol for the first time which meant I got to show her my flat and where I live and a very small part of Bristol which I really liked being able to do. It makes things more real if thats the right choice of words and if that makes sense (it does in my head).

But the visit was not all about seeing my flat and meeting my flatmate, we had a dungeon to explore!

A few weeks previous to this visit I had attended a kinky party at a new dungeon owned, built and run by a friend and had a really good night. This time Vivienne and I were heading back to this dungeon for some play and for some pictures to be taken and for Vivienne to meet the owner. It was just going to be still photos we were doing but I thought that actually worked out really well  because we asically played, and as we played the photographer Simon (big thank you to you for this) took pictures. For the large part of it we paid little or no attention to the camera which means some of the pictures are just fully raw and fully natural and in my exeperience it is a rare thing to have these really natural pictures with a Domme that I truly want to serve, submit to and try and please, I REALLY enjoyed that. As with every time I play with Vivienne (actually that should say every time Vivienne plays with me) I have loved it, she does things to me that very few people have done before and I plan on writing a whole seperate post about this soon, so expect to see lots more on here about how fantastic I think Vivienne is, but I think this comes across on some of these pictures so well, there is nothing staged or exaggerated in these ones.

I’m not going to go into loads of details as to what we did as the pictures explain that but needless to say I loved it. We were in the dungeon for a good few hours and there was rope, there was caning, there was worshiping Vivienne and there was even unlocked of the chastity device.Then in the next few days I had the quite enjoyable task of going through the 900 pictures and first picking the best 60, and then I picking my absolute favourites which I have posted here (I know I spoil you).

I loved the pictures for so many different reasons. I loved them because I really liked the make up Vivienne did for me, the lighting in the dungeon looked great and of course Vivienne looked fantastic, but most of all I loved some of the pictures because it showed me and Vivienne playing, and not playing for the camera or playing for anyone but just playing.

JD x x

Fetish and Fuckery with Vivienne L’Amour

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Recently I was lucky enough to go and spend a weekend with Vivienne L’Amour at hers in Derby where we did some filming for her new website Fetishandfuckery, played a little off camera, did an interview (will post that here soon) and got to know each other a little more. Im going to start this post by saying what a fantastic weekend I had!

I had met Vivienne a few times before this weekend and seen her in action when we both were filming for English Mansion last year but even in that shoot we didnt really have any direct contact so before arriving I had yet to experience Vivienne being dominant with me first hand but having seen a few videos and clip it is fair to say that I was excited to change this fact.

I arrived on the saturday and we decided that the filming side of things could wait until sunday. Instead, on the saturday evening we did the interview, which will be posted on here asap. I should point out Vivienne decided she would like to do the interview while she was in the bath, talk about being distracted while im trying to think of follow up questions to her answers, not that I was complaining thought! Im excited to get that interview posted, I think its great one, even if i do say so myself so watch this space.

Later that evening we had abit of a play involving rope, wax and blindfolds and I have to say it was the highlight of my weekend, it felt amazing. Rope is a real love of mine even though I don’t do it enough, so to find out Vivienne was a fan as well, well let’s just say I was a happy bunny (Rope pun intended). What I really enjoyed about this was that I never knew what was going to happen next when we started played and that is always a real rush. I was blondfolded from the very start and as anyone that has experienced being bindfolded knows, as soon as you can’t see what is happening the other senses become highened. Every sounds becomes more important and most importantly for rope play every touch becomes so much more. I’m not actually 100% sure how I was tied because I didn’t actually see it and by the time Vivienne was finished I was so deep into my happy subby place I had stopped thinking about what was tied and what wasn’t, all I knew was I couldnt move much and I couldnt be happier about that. One thing that did surprise me with the rope was when Vivienne put some round my neck, it wasn’t tight but it did have the effect to causing a little extra adreniline rush, and I loved that.

Once I was all tied up Vivienne then gave me my next surprise and that was wax play. I have never done any sort of wax play before but I can tell you now, I plan to do it again very soon, I loved it. The feeling of the wax dripping on the skin and then hardening it a real mix of pain and pleasure.  Although, to begin with It did actually take me a little while to realise what was happening, it was something I enjoyed a huge amount and it was a slightly new sensation. What I mentioned before about adding a blindfold highening the senses really played its part here. The combination of rope and hot wax dripping on the skin and Vivienne’s very skillful touches, strokes and stratches made the whole thing very sensual and very very enjoyable. I don’t know if she knew this at the time but I was basically like putty in her hands for most of that night, what ever she asked of me I probably would have done. Actually who am I kidding, of course she knew!!

Oh yeah I forgot to mention, Vivienne also had put one of her quite intense vibrators on me with the intentsity and speed continuing changing. Actually thinking back its no surprise this was the highlight of my weeknd and that I turned into a submissive putty for her, it was fucking awesome! That night I had a lot of kinky rope based dreams.

The next day was filming day and we did about 5 or 6 scenes altogher. We started in the dungeon and more specifically I started the first scene in Vivienne’s cage. Now at the risk of me spending a lot more time in there in the future I have to say it was actually very comfortable, but it Vivenne asks it was a real struggle…ssshhh thats our little secret. So the first scene was really just Vivenne talking to the camera and explaining she had me in her cage, locked in a chastity cage and I was there to do with as she liked, I was just lying in the cage behind her pn camera, trying and failing not to smile too much.

To be honest im struggling to remember the order and exactly what we did next but there was a lot boot worship and a lot of me on my knees in front of Vivenne. We did do a humiliation based clip where I had to repeat what Vivienne said about me and as you can imagine (or find out if you buy the clip) she was a little on the mean side, and this was new to me. Those of you that know me will know humiliation this isn’t my thing, it was good to actually try it but I know for sure it will never be something I enjoy. Maybe this comes across of camera and maybe thats a good thing, it might make it more realistic??

Next came a smoking fetish clip where I get a bit reluctant to do what I am told so am punished with a ‘forced’ sucking of strap on, followed by some real strap on action with a couple of strap ons, including what felt like a very large one, I liked this part of the day!

After a quick outfit change we were ready to go again with the last couple of clips, which were all about pain! It involved a spanking, flogging and caning. Now I don’t know if it was because Vivienne can hit very hard or because I am quite out of practice receiving the cane but these really hurt, and I liked that a lot. I will let you into a little secret here, the camera actually ran out of batteries during the caning but Vivienne decided I would still be getting everything she had promised, and if anything the caning just got harder off camera. I did however find myself really wanting to take the pain for her as it really felt like she was really enjoying it as well. Doing this scene really got me back in the subbmissive place I mentioned before with the rope and wax, and after we had finished Vivienne got me to have a lay down on the bed and I know I just had a stupid grim and dazed look on my face, I was one happy little kinky cross dresser.

Dont forgot to check out the clips on Viviennes site and her clips4sale site and if you have come this far you should also go visit her twitter

JD x x



English Mansion at Dungeon Manor

You know when you have two really good things and you combine them to make something special, like strawberries and cream or fish and chips or pizza and beer or coke and ummm, like two cokes, well I would add another one to the list – English Mansion and Dungeon Manor. Allow me to explain. (I realise all those examples are food and drink related, I was hungry whilst writing this.)

If you have read my blog before the chances are you will know what a huge fan of The English Mansion I am and how much I love to go and film with them when ever I am given the opportunity.  Also you might have seen that I visited Dungeon Manor recently and had a great couple of days there including a little bit of filming. So with that in mind you might be able to imagine I was a little excited about being asked if I would like to go to Dungeon Manor and film with English Mansion, two of my favourite Femdom places combined for one shoot!  Obviously that is a huge yes please, sign me up! If I had to walk there then I would have (luckily my car was working and turned out to be the better method of travel, but you get my point) and I’m very happy to say that shoot is exactly what I was doing a few weeks ago.

I arrived at Dungeon Manor the evening before filming to be greeted by Ely with a big hug and a house full of people. I also was able to say hello in person for the first time to Ely’s sub charlotte, who is lovely. The house was full of people, a mixture of Dommes and subs and turned out to be sub training for house submissives for Pedestal but things seemed to be winding down for the evening as I arrived. This was only my second visit to Dungeon Manor but I am already realising you never know what to expect when you arrive there.  There always seems to be something happening, it’s never dull and for someone that goes without kink for large periods of time its a fantastic feeling to immerse yourself into the kink lifestyle that surrounds the place. I personally love it and the feelings that come with that, plus Ely lives there so win win really!

The next day started with a relatively early start and the first thing planned was having our make up done by a professional make up artist.  I have to say I loved having this done and was really happy with it after she had finished…. dare I say it but I don’t think I looked half bad. The hardest part now will be when I next do my own make up again and it goes back to looking like a small child did it! Still, I asked quite a lot of questions while she was applying different things and hopefully took away a little bit of her vast knowledge.

The filming itself was very different to any previous filming I had done in the past for two reasons, the first being that it was a group thing with 5 Domme ladies, Mistress Sidonia, Mistress Evilyne, Governess Ely, Goddess Miss Kelly and Mistress Vivienne l’Amour. Then there was me, charlotte, squealy and tiffany as the subs. The second difference with this filming was the fact that all the scenes were linked and followed one after the other, which I really liked the idea of.

The rough outline of the story was that we were at a Femdom party at a household run by Domme women, squealy had arrived at the house after answering an advert for a sub but upon arrival discovered that men are not welcome in this house and that meant he would be feminised, whether he liked it or not. All the ladies looked amazing with a mixture of beautiful ball gowns and latex/rubber dresses. Mistress Vivienne l’Amour looked incredible in her lime green latex dress and I have to admit I caught myself a couple of times throughout the day just looking at her in her dress thinking ‘wow, stunning’; I just hope this wasn’t picked up on camera…! Also my foot and leg fetish seems to be growing and Goddess Miss Kelly happened to be wearing a dress which showed off her legs perfectly, and I luckily got to have a closer look at them later in the day, but I will get to that in a bit.

When the filming started I didn’t really have to do much to start with other than pour the occasional glass of champagne as it was charlotte showing squealy how to be the perfect sissy to begin with followed by squealy getting quite a bit of abuse from almost all the ladies. While this was happening It didn’t take long for me to realise where squealy got his name from and some of the noises he was making really made it difficult to keep a straight face, I have to say though seeing what was happening to him, rather him than me is all I will say. This section of filming finished with squealy in a cage and us other three subs lined up for a bit of anal play, and in my case a bit of shoe worship with Goddess Miss Kelly at the same time which turned out to be a recurring theme of the day I am very glad to say.

The next section of the filming was my favourite part of the day even if it was technically my punishment. I was being punished for two reasons, the first thing was for me being lippy and the second for me not cleaning properly, I know what you are thinking, that doesn’t sound like me at all………. Governess Ely and Goddess Miss Kelly were dishing out my punishment and they both used a mixture of hitty things including a hairbrush (which actually hurt like hell), a few paddles and the cane. It had been a while since I had had the cane and I really did enjoy being caned by two beautiful Dommes, and loved the fact the marks lasted for a good few days after I got home. On a side note this was also the first time I had been caned with a butt plug in, adds a little something extra, highly recommended if you are into that sort of thing😉

The rest of the filming involved a smoking/spitting scene with all the Dommes and charlotte Then squealy (now feminised) was used by all the ladies again. To be honest I couldn’t tell you any details about what happened on the last scene even if I wanted to because the whole time I was worshipping both Governess Ely’s and Goddess Miss Kelly’s feet and at the time not much else mattered, despite squealy’s squeals of pain or pleasure or both??

So what did I miss, oh yeah there was also rope, chastity, pink bondage tape and I was given a new corset so all round another really fun day filming. A huge thank you goes out to everyone there for allowing me to be part of the day and especially to Mistress Evilyne and Mistress Sidonia for inviting me to come along and film, I really do enjoy it every time, thank you!

JD x x

Spanks of Love

Last week I spent the week up in Blackburn with Ely and had a fantastic week, had lots of fun both kink and none kink. The week went way too quick and im really not lying when I say I did not want to come home on the Friday!

Don’t worry, I’m not going to bore everyone by blogging about the whole week, plus somethings are just not for blogs. I do want to talk about one of the days though, which was the day we played and dressed up for almost the whole day, my personal favourite day of the week:)

For those that don’t know, Ely has a great big play room/dressing room at her place and we both spend a long time deciding what to wear, some longer than others but im not going to name names😉 .  Ely decided that she would like to see me in my blue Alice dress as it had been a while, so with the addition of all white lingerie and stocking I was actually ready first so then tried to ‘help’ Ely decide what to wear. (Apparently if you suggest latex over and over again it doesn’t mean she will wear it lol) Ely decided on all black. Thigh high boots, black top and jeans and a black corset to complete the all black outfit. She looked amazing! Ely also wore my blond wig which left me to try afew other colours. Its very rare to see me in anything but the long blonde wig, but I picked a shorter brunette wig which I now really like and want to buy my own now! I have decided I should experiment more with wigs now!

Once dressed the first thing Ely picked up was some rope, now this always puts a huge smile on my face so when Ely told me to put my wrists together and hold my hands out in front of me, I was almost doing it before she even opened her mouth! My wrist were then tied and I was gagged with a ball gag, which I also love (running theme throughout the day).

I found out just how much Ely likes someone gagged and after a while drooling from the gag, which did happen. One of my favourite parts of the whole week with Ely was seeing her physically light up at the sight of me on my knees in front of her, tied and gagged and very happily under her control, it was at that stage that I didn’t want this to stop. Also being told how cute I looked helped as well!

While I was still gagged and tied Ely decided this would be a good time to try a bit of anal play with a mixture of my own toys (yes I have a few) and Ely’s toys. Having been in chastity a long time at this stage, all im going to say is I really wanted this! We then did something I have wanted to do for a long time with Ely and that was strap on. Its safe to say im not very experienced with this but I hope this was the first of many times. Hint hint Ely if your reading!

We then took a little break but the fun wasn’t over for the night as we were back in the play room not long after and Ely had her cane in hand. I had said earlier how I would like to go home with a few bruises and Ely was only too happy to help there. Now I have said this before but I will say it again, im a bit of a wimp with the cane, and Ely knows this. She also knows im a bit out of practice with it but she knows better than anyone how far to push me. I think she did push me a little with this caning and looking back im very glad she did, the feeling after a caning is almost incomparable, its something I really am starting to love.

The feeling after this caning was incredible.

Ely didn’t disappoint on the bruises front either, got some very nice stripes on my bum from two different canes that were used, plus I got 12 hits with the back of a hairbrush which gave my favourite bruise ever, a cute heart shaped on my left cheek:)

Oh and I got let out of chastity as well!!

JD x x

Trip up North

Last weekend I had a long overdue trip up north to Blackburn to see Ely. It had been quite a while since we had seen each other so I  was quite excited to go spend the weekend with her (and Domm). I drove up on Friday and arrived in the evening, after a quick tour of Ely’s new place we were quickly off to go have a cuppa round Ely’s mums. I met all her family and all were very nice although I have to say knowing they knew a lot about Jessica and kink did make me a little uncomfortable to begin with as that is something that is very new to me, but it didn’t take long until I was feeling a lot more comfortable.

Most of the weekend was me and Ely hanging out etc which as it had been a while was great, but on the Saturday evening we got to have a little play and abit of dressing which obviously is something I always enjoy. Ely also gave me a little gift which was a hand made anklet saying ‘slut’ which I liked a lot and apparently suits we quite well, I don’t know what shes trying to say there……. So we both got dressed up, me in my blue and white polka dot dress, white corset and black heels, along with the gift from Ely, and Ely in her thigh high leather boots.

Ely then decided it was time to lock me up and told me to put my chastity device on. Once I was locked up and Ely had the keys Ely wanted me to thank her and this thank you should be in the form of boot worship. I’m a big fan of boots so was more than happy to oblige!  It was also the first time I had done this with Ely and loved it and ended up doing it for quite a while! That evening I also gave Ely a back rub/massage and its safe to say I might need to work my technique here, but you know what they say, practice makes perfect!

 The next day Ely decided she would give me another gift to go home with, a nice red bum. So a couple of hours before I was due to head home I was over Ely’s knee and Ely was turning my bum a nice shade of red. Once we had gone through afew items it was then time to try turning that red colour into more of a purple with the use of the cane.

It has been a long time since I have felt the cane and I noticed this fact straight away as it felt like it hurt a lot more then previous times but Ely said I did well so im happy. I love the marks that spanking/caning etc leaves, but unfortunately the cane didn’t leave many marks and the ones it did were pretty much gone the next day. Ely has said she will correct this next time which im both nervous and excited about in equal measure! I very good start to what I think is going to be a very exciting year!


JD x x

My Year 2013 Jul-Dec

This is following on form the last post ‘My Year 2013 Jan-Jun‘ with the second half of the year starting from July.


  • Camden Crunch – In July I went to the Camden crunch for the first time and had a really good night. This was the first time I had been to any sort of munch before but had been told before hand that the crunch was slightly different, more like half munch have club, but either way it was a lot of fun and I got to meet more people. I remember it was incredibly hot on the day and me and Ely arrived relatively early and only Kash and Miss Kitty Bliss were there. I was locked in chastity for Ely at the time and there was a lot of teasing which im sure Ely took great delight in telling people I was looked up. Ely even gave the key to Miss Kitty Bliss for most of the night and only got it back the morning after. I also remember Miss Kitty Bliss enjoyed a bit of teasing as well! Very very hot!! This was also the night of emergency gin which was very funny, we aslo all went round to a party after the crunch which was a lot of fun. I did wake up with a little bit of a head ache the next morning (I blame the gin there) but having coffee made for me by two Mistress’s while I was still in bed, that kind of made up for it!!😛
  • Pedestal 3rd visit – In July I also went to Club Pedestal again for the third time, I wanted to mention this because this was actually my favourite night at pedestal. I got to meet a few other people but most importantly this was the first time where I felt comfortable enough to actually meet and chat with others who I had met before, I didn’t have to rely so much on Ely introducing me etc, it felt quite good. Oh and also I got to wear latex out for the first time!


  • Chastity – August marked the end of mine and Ely’s first real chastity play when I was ‘in chastity’ for a month. At this time me and Ely had spoken about chastity before and I know Ely is a big fan but until August we hadn’t really done much in terms of chastity. The month was a mixture of the device with a metal lock, a plastic lock and no device at all, all of which had the same basic rule of no playing and all all had the same effect, which meant a month without orgasm. The month was a lot of fun and I still find it amazing and really interesting what chastity can do to me in terms of feelings in general and submissive feelings. I do think though the hardest part of this month was the lines between friendship and Domme/sub stuff between me and Ely, I know it crossed my mind a lot and im pretty sure it was the same for Ely. However saying that my curiosity with chastity hasn’t gone away and it is still something I will continue to push in 2014 im sure.


  • Rope and Spanking with a Friend – In September I went to catch up with an friend who I have played with afew times before in 2012 and we caught up abit over tea then we got to have a bit of a play as well which was a lot of fun. She is a switch but has always been Domme to me, and like me liked rope play a lot, so when we played that was the first thing we did. We played around with a few ties including a dragon sleeve type thing with my arms behind my back and a rope type corset which felt amazing, and left some very nice marks on me after. After the rope play we did abit of spanking using afew things, my favourite being a simple wooden spoon. Again this left some really good marks on me which is something I do like a lot. I was again in chastity at this time and Ely and her had spoken to each other before my visit, I know chastity was something she enjoyed and there was a lot of teasing inbetween the spanking, and at one point I actually whimpered from frustration, that’s never happened to me before! This was a very fun afternoon and one im a a little sad couldn’t be repeated again.
  • The adventures of Jessica Dee Part 1 – I also wanted to include this post as it was one of my favourites from the last year. It was a lot of fun making and it was very different to any of my other posts, hopefully will do more similar sort of things in the future.


  • A big thank you – October was a very quiet month for me kink wise but I did write a blog post in October that was very important to me, it was saying a big thank you to Ely. As you might have noticed if you have read through the previous post and this one, a lot of the things I did this year involved Ely and I don’t think would have happened without her. So once again Thank you Ely! x


  • Photo shoot with Miss Kitty Bliss – In November I got the chance to go do a photo shoot with Miss Kitty Bliss in her dungeon in London. I was asked about this first by Miss Kitty Bliss earlier in the summer and I ofcourse said yes, then it was just a matter of finding a time when we could do it. We did a few pictures of me on my own to start with which is something I was less comfortable with to start with but after a little while did enjoy more and more. Then the really fun part was the pics with Miss Kitty Bliss. We did some caning, boot worship, lots of rope and afew other things. I have always been a big fan of Miss Kitty Bliss so this was a real pleasure to be able to do some pictures with her and have seen afew of the pictures pop up on her facebook profile and website does make me smile.

Sanctum outfit

  • Sanctum – I also got to go to another fetish night with Miss Kitty Bliss after the photo shoot and this was the first time I had been to a smaller more intimate type club. I had a great night and was tied up again more than once by Miss Kitty Bliss, my favourite part of the night had to be hearing ‘I think I want to hog tied Jess’ coming from Miss Kitty Bliss, you should have seen the huge grin on my face! I really enjoyed being tied at the club and I have to say Miss Kitty Bliss is very good at it, it really did feel amazing. Another highlight was seeing Goddess Cleo and Miss Kitty Bliss giving a double caning, I could tell they have done that together a few times before, next time I hope to do more than just watch! Also, because this was a smaller club if gave me more of a chance to chat to afew other people who have similar experiences and interests which is something I don’t get to do that often, so that is always nice, plus I got a spanking from Goddess Cleo to end the night so it was a very good night all round!
  • English mansion clip on website – The other very exciting thing that happened in November was that the video that was done from my first visit to the English Mansion with Lady Nina Birch was added to the site. I didn’t know this was going to happen so was abit of a surprise to see my face there when I opened up the site one day, but a very nice surprise I have to say. Watching the video clips was very surreal for me but it did bring back some very good memories of the day even if I do find it a little cringy to watch myself on camera. It did really make me want to go back to do it again though and I think the clips look great, even if I do say so myself haha.



  • Confusion and doubts – It does seem a bit of a shame to end the year on a bit of a down point but that’s kind of just how it ended up really. I was/am going through a lot of doubts and confusion about my submissive side and how I fit in to things and how I really see myself. I’m not going to repeat them again here though as I only wrote that post a few weeks ago.

Well that was my 2013 and I have to say overall what a year I have had, going back and writing these last two blog posts has made me realise I have been able to do some amazing and exciting things. Just wanted to say a big thank you to everyone who has helped me a long the way!!

Lets hope the fun continues into 2014!

JD x x

My Year 2013 Jan-Jun

I cant claim this sort of thing is an original idea but im going to do it anyway. This is a blog post all about my last year, looking back over the last year and at a few of the things I have done and some of the real highlights. I feel like this was a very good year for me,  a year I got so much more involved in kink and bdsm and managed to experience some of the things I had been wanting to for a long time and meet some incredible people.  I have decided the easiest way to do this was month by month and I have split it into two posts of 6 months each. Also the other big bonus of this sort of blog is if your feeling lazy or just cant be arsed to go back to read old post blogs then just read the review of the year posts and that’s the whole of 2013 covered!


  • Vintage Crossdressing pics – In January last year I was given afew of the pictures from the sets that were taken when I went to see Lady Annabelle for I visited in Nov 12 but it wasn’t till January I was able to get the pics together and add them on the blog. It was a lot of fun going down the do the filming and this was my first ever filming or photo shoot type of thing I had ever done, I also kind of see this as a huge step I took to becoming more involved in bdsm and kink in general. Also I think doing this filming helped me to do the filming for English mansion!


  • Meeting Ely – Without a doubt this was the single most important thing that happened this year and my number one favourite thing that happened to me. Me and Ely had been chatting for a while before meeting, and its safe to say I wanted to meet her from about September the year before when we first chatted on Fetlife. I knew my irresistible charm and lovable personally would mean Ely would agree eventually…! We had planned to do an interview type blog post ,with me ‘interviewing’ Ely, and in February we planned an afternoon for me to go over and ask afew questions. I don’t think either of us realised this would be the first of many many visits and soon me and Ely became good friends (as well as having lots of kink fun along the way). Almost a year later and now we are really good friends, which is lucky for her as she is stuck with me now mwhahah!
  • Blog was one year old – Also worth a mention the blog turned 1 year old in Feb, something else I didnt think would happen when I started it!


  • Night out at Club Pedestal for the first time – In March I went to my first fetish night out in London. I went to Club Pedestal with Governess Ely and Miss Annalieza. This was also the first time I met Annalieza and very glad to say not the last as shes a lot of fun and someone who seems happy to give advice whenever asked, and put the two ladies together and its always a lot of fun! I do remember being incredibly nervous about going out dressed and when I arrived it was a lot to take in as I had never been to a fetish club of that size before, was a bit of an eye opener to say the least. This is also the first time I met Miss Kitty Bliss. shortly after arriving in the club, getting a tap on the shoulder and asking me if I was Jessica Dee, turning round and seeing it was Miss Kitty Bliss. This put my nerves at ease and although it was only a small thing, I think it helped me a lot. Again very glad to say this wasn’t the last time I met Miss Kitty Bliss either:) I had forgotten until I read back over the old blog posts after writing this one, that I had only visited Ely twice before going to Pedestal with her, I think the nerves were allowed!
  • So are you dressed right now? – Also wanted to mention this post as its one of my favourites that I have ever written and still feel people should read it.


  • First Visit to The English Mansion – This has to be one of the other huge highlights of the year for me as I was asked if i would like to come and do a little bit of filming for the English Mansion. Its actually came a little bit out of the blue, and when I was asked I was actually very close to saying no (very naive then haha) I think if i had said no then I would still be regretting it now! It was really Ely that talked some sense in to me and helped me realise it would be foolish of me to not go. Needless to say, when I got there I absolutely loved it. Yes I was incredibly nervous but I met Dominant Dolly, Lady Nina Birch and Mistress Sidonia who all really made me feel very at ease. I don’t know if i have ever been so nervous when I arrived that day, but I had a huge amount of fun and of the pictures taken with Lady Nina Birch are up there with my favourite ever pics of me as Jess. This whole day was a massive confidence boost for me as well.


  •  My favourite play session of the year –  I always had my doubts about ‘sub space’ and exactly what it was but I would say this was the closest I have ever got to experiencing it, or at least what I think it is. This happened when playing with Ely in May. This session included dressing up for pics, OTK spanking, caning, rope play, claws. It was really the first time I realised that rope play is probably my favourite type of play and the mixture of all the different types of play we did that day really made me feel good. There was a real feeling of happiness and relaxation afterwards as well, so much so that I fell asleep! The fact it was just an afternoon playing with just me and Ely, no camera, know one else there and both of us having fun, that combination makes it very memorable for me.
  • Party at Miss Cate’s – The other thing that was a lot of fun in May was going to a small party at Miss Cate’s with Governess Ely and a few others. I got a meet a few other Dommes and subs which is always good. I arrived late as I was in work and didn’t get changed for a little while once there. When I did change there was a few ‘You look better in girl mode’ ‘you should spend more time in girl mode’ comments, Ely has reminded me of these afew times since and im still not sure how much of a compliment they really are!!


  • Return to English Mansion – I knew as soon as I got home from my first visit to The English Mansion that I wanted to go back again, and I was very lucky to have a chance to do so only a couple of months later, and to do so with Ely was fantastic. I knew how excited Ely was about doing filming for the site so to be able to do that with her was something I really liked. I got to dress up outside on a gorgeous sunny day, I got to chat with Mistress Sidonia and Dominant Dolly again, and I got to see a huge beaming smile on Ely’s face both during and after the whole day. Plus I got to dress up on camera and have people tell me I looked pretty, which by this stage I had worked out I might enjoy just a little bit….. So this was another one of my biggest highlights of the year. (Just don’t mention punishment pants!!)

JD x x